I know there's a million questions but everyone, I really need some serious advice..?

ok! here it gos!!!!! i'm sure you guys have had some un times and have a couple in your future, but seriously.....why don't you re-read your essay and think this thrugh a little more. i honestly think you need to consider a break up. a break up can help you reflect on the relationship with a clear head.....so i hope this helps and everything gets better for you